Good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
Biography
Her name is YAYA. Just a girl next door. 27/10/1989
Can't be bothered much.
I don't live to please people. This is my space to rant my thoughts.
If you don't like jollywell don't read and please leave. Thank you.
Happy 8th baby. You know I was mad at you for th longest time ever. All you want is my trust but what I need from you is your loyalty. To be honest, you're th only one I've got. Don't let me down or disappoint me again. I hope whatever you say this time round you really mean it. If not, I'll just gonna let you go for good. I'm telling you this because I don't want to get hurt anymore. I love you and you know I will never hurt you. So please do not hurt me. Lets be fair shall we? Your family dislikes me, and I'm sick. I'm going to go for an operation soon. If you want to hurt me,let me know and Ill let you go. Because I don't think I can handle that kind of hurt when I'm lying at th hospital bed. If I can be faithful to you, why can't you? What I can say is that "Th person who makes you smile all th time is th one who is capable of making you cry your heart out at th same time." I love you. Will always do. xoxo
I miss blogging. Life have been difficult for me. Seriously. Bf family hates me. Hypocrites. I'm trying to deal with rejection now. Reason is because I'm sick. Dorg takot aku mintak bf aku duit ni. Fact is : I never ask my bf for money at all. Like as if aku ni nk pegi operation mintak duit dorg. Aku sedar diri aku ni siape. Tapi they got no right to hina me until like that. For once, I thought they were really nice people whom I can clique with them. But end up, they were just liars. Seriously. Bf is ashamed of them. The person who brought him up hates the girl he loves most. Why is this even happening? It's difficult you see. Kalau org tue tk restu your relationship. I don't know what to do. I'm just hoping for th best while expecting th worst. Dalam diam dorg mcm gini. Ya Allah Ya tuhanku, berikanlah hamba mu kekuatan untuk meneruskan perjalanan dalam hidup ini. Luckily my parents brought me up well. Bak kate pepatah melayu, jangan carik kebahagiaan ke atas kesengsaraan orang lain. Tak baik. Orang melayu mudah lupe diri bile da kaye. Mcm gini la. Tak semestinye aku mcm gini dorg bole hina aku dgn sesuke hati dorg. Will update more when I'm free.
Bf ckp aku mcm pompan jepun ni. Family tak restu. Susah ah. :'(
I'm seriously very upset. It was just a question and you said I was making a fuss about everything. Didn't I ask you nicely? Didn't I? Nothing comes out right from my mouth. You didn't say that but it seems like it. This is th reason why I'm scared of saying too much. Saying too much can result to this which I hate most. I'm trying to be th best for you but you just didn't see th effort I'm giving. Why is this even happening? Earlier was issues at home and now you're saying that I'm making an issue about you logging in to facebook. If I had issues with that, I'm very sure to have ask you to delete your account IF I was that insecure. I trust you more than you trust me. So please, all I'm asking is stop assuming things like I have issues with you logging on to facebook. I'm too upset to say anything else. I don't know if you gonna read this. I just don't know anymore. Just stop assuming. It's killing me. Why am I still th girl who cry at night? WHY?
Boyfriend got me this for valentines day. Awweesome~
FML. I typed th whole thing and I accidentally press IDK what and *poof* it's gone now. Damn. Seriously I lazy to retype th whole thing again. So forget it. Alhamdullillah I got th most sweetest bf ever. Nothing more I could ever ask for. Th best I ever had. And I'm certain that there ain't nothing better than this.
This song is for him. I love you boy, more than you'll ever know. :)
It's been a long since I last check my blog. So decided to remove all th old posts cause they mean nothing to me now. I don't like dwelling on my past. I'm very much contented with what I have now. Health wise, I'm not really physically well. Alot of things happen in 2010. Shall not elaborate much. Anyway, love life have been okay-okay only. Met someone from my past. Knew him for almost 6years but it's like on and off thing. Someone I could trust my life with. He's been great. Right now we've been together for almost a year by June. Insyaallah.
I know nobody read blogs nowadays. But it's okay I'm just ranting my thoughts. Alot of things on my mind. Especially about my health. I'm really worried you know. I'm having hip deformity. Actually I have lupus. Go google it if you don't know. Because of eating too much prednisolone aka steroids, th side effects is hip deformity. You know I've been trying to stay strong but only god knows how I feel deep inside. Nobody really know don't they? Been having difficulty walking and doing a lot of stuffs. I feel useless. Sometimes, I question myself why god is giving me this sickness but I can't blame god all th time right? I hope he have better things instore for me in time to come. I can't wait to get well and walk as per normal. This sucks but just got to endure. Surgery will be in few months time but I hope I can endure all this with an open mind. Insyaallah. I think that's all for now. Will be back for updates.
Friday, March 11, 2011
FML. I typed th whole thing and I accidentally press IDK what and *poof* it's gone now. Damn. Seriously I lazy to retype th whole thing again. So forget it. Alhamdullillah I got th most sweetest bf ever. Nothing more I could ever ask for. Th best I ever had. And I'm certain that there ain't nothing better than this.