I know nobody read blogs nowadays. But it's okay I'm just ranting my thoughts. Alot of things on my mind. Especially about my health. I'm really worried you know. I'm having hip deformity. Actually I have lupus. Go google it if you don't know. Because of eating too much prednisolone aka steroids, th side effects is hip deformity. You know I've been trying to stay strong but only god knows how I feel deep inside. Nobody really know don't they? Been having difficulty walking and doing a lot of stuffs. I feel useless. Sometimes, I question myself why god is giving me this sickness but I can't blame god all th time right? I hope he have better things instore for me in time to come. I can't wait to get well and walk as per normal. This sucks but just got to endure. Surgery will be in few months time but I hope I can endure all this with an open mind. Insyaallah. I think that's all for now. Will be back for updates.